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Ten. Three. Nineteen.

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This is from my journal on October 3, 2019, my first journal entry in my new journal that I bought on clearance from Target. I started writing in a journal as a way to hopefully help me get clarity on a lot of things. I know I'm not 100% sure on what my purpose is in life, but I know where I am right now is where I'm supposed to be because things have NOT been easy and have left my feelings in a tumultuous mess. Journaling has been cathartic release for me. Typically I find solace in either sewing, crocheting, or knitting, but none of those things can help put my thoughts in order so that I can sort through them. With journaling I can  go back and read what I've written and really think about the things that have flowed forth from my pen. If you've never journaled before, I encourage you to do so. I try to spend at least 30 minutes of just writing whatever comes to mind, it doesn't matter what it is. I don't usually sit and think about what I'm going to writ...

Flash Back Friday: Chapter 3

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It was just a normal Friday morning. I got up like I always did to get ready for school, and then once I got on the school bus with my sister, I took my usual morning nap until we were dropped off by our bus driver. My first block computer class went as it typically did, a plethora of things to type up in order to increase our typing word per minute speed. When the bell sounded for break, I grabbed my backpack and headed to the habitual hangout spot in the atrium. All the expected people were there of course, all perfectly normal as it customarily was. When the bell signaled the end of break, we all said our goodbyes. Steven, Stinky, and I were the last three left of the group in the atrium that day. Everyone usually gave the "bro" hug to each other as we left for second block. You know, the one where you grab right hands and pull yourselves together in order to give each other a hug or a pat on the back? Well, Steven and I did that, except this time instead of releasing hand...

Abandoning trust, or trusting with abandon?

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What do you know about the word trust? Well, if we look it up in the dictionary we'll find that trust is firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something. But still, what do YOU know about the word trust? What have you personally experienced in regard to trust? Trust can mean a lot of different things for a lot of different people. Trust isn't readily given, it isn't easily obtained, right? You don't just automatically trust someone the first time you meet them. Would you walk-up to someone you've never met before, tell them your whole life's story, and then ask them not to tell anyone? Probably not, but if  you do, you may want to re-evaluate your definition of trust. I think I've learned more about the word trust in the past couple years than I have in the almost 29 years of my life, and I thought I'd share with you what I've found true trust to be, starting with the fact that trust is NOT easy. There are a lot of...

How to Make a T-Shirt Quilt

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I've always wanted to make a t-shirt quilt before, but I've never actually taken the time to sit down and make one. I have a ton of t-shirts from my running days that have been occupying the greater parts of my dresser drawers and never see the light of day because they're too small for me now. I've actually already gone through and cut all of them up so that I could make a quilt, but I haven't taken the official leap into turning them into a quilt yet. Every year the Athletic Department here at Georgia College has an athletic auction to raise money for their sports teams. They usually reach out to the community looking for items they can use during the silent auction portion as well as the live auction. Last year I donated some items from my personal business that I have, but my wheels started turning when I made a fabric basket to put them in. I had just gotten done making a lap quilt for my sister-in-law as a wedding gift and I thought it might be neat to make a ...

Flash Back Friday: Chapter 2

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Before I knew it, the summer was over and it was time to start a new chapter of my life. It was a surreal experience walking through the same halls my siblings walked through, as well as my mom so many years before them. Everyone I knew was excited about the prospect of being a high school student. I, on the other hand, was more nervous than anything else. I wasn't sure what  to expect, and trying to navigate a school I had never been in before to find my classes was really all that was at the forefront of my mind. I had a lot of the teachers my siblings had previously, and I was picked out easily by all the teachers because we all looked alike. I don't remember much about my first day of school, but apparently I missed the first day of cross country practice and Steven went nuts about it. He made sure I was at the next practice and that I never missed another practice again. Even though he wasn't supposed to, he drove me to practice and home from practice. I remember being...

Flash back Friday: Chapter 1

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Growing up as an adolescent, I wouldn't say I was the most popular girl in town. I was known by a lot of the adults as a Helton, which worked in my favor due to my elder siblings leaving an impeccable reputation behind them. But to my peers, at least the ones I wasn't close to, I was most likely just another face in the crowd. I remember middle school being especially challenging for me, as I think it is with most young children. There's a lot of changes going on in the body both mentally and physically and sometimes it can be a little overwhelming. Although I thought I was probably pretty normal back then, looking into my past I would call myself "interesting." I stayed out of trouble and never did anything that would be worth regretting, but I remember a girl who was in an odd state of emotional affairs. I remember being unhappy a lot of the times, secluding myself from family when we had gatherings, and not wanting to participate in much of anything. I wore a l...

How to Begin Sewing

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Have you ever uttered the words, "I wish I knew how to sew!" before? Do you know someone who has? I hear it all the time after I've completed a project, people saying "Oh, you're so creative! I wish I could do something like that" or "You made that? I wouldn't even know how to thread a needle, much less make something on a sewing machine." I get it, sewing can seem daunting, especially if you've never tried your hand at it before. But in all actuality, it's only as daunting as you make it, and you may even surprise yourself! In the age of technology, it's amazing what you can learn just by watching self-help YouTube videos. I knew the basics of sewing before I really started to get into it, but most of what I've learned has come from video tutorials online and some from people I know. Sewing isn't overly difficult, but it does require much patience and practice. Personally, I know I got frustrated the first few times I tried...